Gloomy Wednesday

First off let me apologize. This might not be the most positive blog post but I think It'll help me feel a lot better to write out how I'm feeling.

You may have read about it in my last post but I have felt incredibly sick off and on for the past year but even more so the past couple of months. I try my best to put on a smile and act like I'm just fine but I've never been in so much pain in my life. I have shooting pains in my pelvic area, my stomach is nauseous and bloated, my back aches like I've been kicked by a horse, and my entire body is just tired and achey.

I was suppose to get surgery done yesterday to remove the endometriosis and ruptured ovarian cysts but the hospital called me 2 hours before the surgery and told me my insurance hadn't approved the surgery. I am double covered with insurance so I didn't understand how that was possible. Turns out being double insured bit me in the butt!

I'm still insured under my parent's and since I've had that longer than my husband's insurance that is my primary insurance. The hospital that the surgery was to be done at is under my husband's insurance. My husband's insurance wouldn't pay for the surgery because my parent's insurance is the primary. My parent's insurance wouldn't drop me off their plan until the end of the year. My doctor only has the rights to do the surgery at the hospital that my husband's insurance covers so I was out of luck. I could have still had it done under my parent's insurance but I would have to pay the out of pocket deductible before they would cover anything. The deductible is over $7,000. Just a liiiiitle out of my budget.

So my doctor put me on some heavy narcotics which don't allow me to drive so I am stuck at home waiting it out until the New Year when my husband's insurance will become my primary insurance. Let's just say I am going crazy, I feel so unfulfilled. I feel like I haven't been able to do anything productive lately and it makes me feel completely worthless.

I also need to write two review posts for some products that I was given in the mail. The last thing I want to do is have my picture taken. Why can't my organs just heal themselves? HA! :)

My goal this week is to work on being more positive. What tricks do you have to keep from feeling gloomy? I know this could be a LOT worse. So I'm incredibly thankful for that. I really do have so many blessings and I try my best to always remind myself of those things.